Dreams

There is this dream, 

I hide deep inside.

So scared am I, 

To even try.

It seems so far,

And yet so close.

Im ticking time bomb,

But I cant help my hopes.

I try to suppress,

Everything I feel,

For I am scared,

It may never be real.

I close my eyes,

And hang my head,

Nothing to do here,

Im as good as dead.

But if I found the courage,

To prove them wrong,

I think I would be happy,

It wouldn’t take long.

But I am scared,

And unsure what to do,

So I keep my dreams a secret,

And wish nobody knew.

My Problem With People.

In a world full of false loves and likes,
Where people date materials,

And do nothing but fight.

We find warmth in our possessions,

And look down at the poor,

Who smile back at us,

Our eyes fill with scorn.

We are naive,

And stupid to dismiss,

That we have false joys,

And wrongful bliss.

We created this mess,

Religion aside,

For we are the devils,

We have nothing to hide,

Take a look around,

To see what you see,

The faces people put on,

Hiding behind degrees.

We are filled,

With nothing but anger,

We take it out on others,

But it’s our selves we are trying to hide.

Polution, wars, viollence too,

By working on ourselves,

We might just save our planet too.

-AmT

Instagram:amberbeatay

All my firsts.

He was all my firsts.

First kiss

First makeout

First kiss under fireworks

But I did not feel the fireworks.
He was my first.

My first time

My first drunken night with a boy

My first time feeling completly out of control

My first being scared for my life.
He took away my firsts.

He stole them from me.

I will never get them back.

He snatched them from me.

He took away my trust.

He took away my warmth,

And left me here laying in the cold.

He took all my firsts.
-AmT

Instagram:amberbeatay