Change is Rough..

I knew I wanted this.

Last summer when I decided I was going to move across Canada to live my dream, something inside me just knew this was what I was supposed to do with my life. 

I had always wanted to live in the maritimes, I have always wanted to study writing, but I didn’t realize how drastically my life would change in such a short period of time. Friends suddenly leaving me high and dry, the guy I had kind of been dating for over a year moving away just a few months before I would. 

I never have felt more confused, alone, frustrated yet hopeful and excited.

I am excited for the challenges that lay ahead of me, but so very worried that I am going to lose more people that are close to me.

Am I going to be all alone? Will I have a complete emotional break down and have to come home and I will have no one left? All of these thoughts are running through my head. What will happen to me? What will my future be?

It is a scary thing changing all that you know in a blink in an eye.

This is more of a diary entry than anything else. I’m not really sure why or what I’m writing at the moment but it just feels good to write it all out. Somtimes I just need to put everything into the universe and get back to what made me want to move to begin with-writing. 

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My Problem With People.

In a world full of false loves and likes,
Where people date materials,

And do nothing but fight.

We find warmth in our possessions,

And look down at the poor,

Who smile back at us,

Our eyes fill with scorn.

We are naive,

And stupid to dismiss,

That we have false joys,

And wrongful bliss.

We created this mess,

Religion aside,

For we are the devils,

We have nothing to hide,

Take a look around,

To see what you see,

The faces people put on,

Hiding behind degrees.

We are filled,

With nothing but anger,

We take it out on others,

But it’s our selves we are trying to hide.

Polution, wars, viollence too,

By working on ourselves,

We might just save our planet too.

-AmT

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