They all wonder why
I cry and sit in my room alone.
They tease and make fun
Of the woman I have become
But little do they know
That they are my foe
And the reason that caused me to be alone.
When you can never do anything right
So you hug your knees and cry at night
And bow your head and pray
That all their words will go away
Because you and the lord know
They hurt you.
With all the yells and screams
You let yourself daydream
That someday they will see
Just how wrong they were to treat me
Like a sword peirced my heart
I show them my scars
Up and down my back
Their words, they attack
As blood drips down my face
Nothing can replace
Thoes hurtful words they scream at me.
So, I wrote this a couple years ago when I was in a very dark place. Although I no longer am facing the same struggles as I was while writing this, I still have my issues and I think everyone can relate to one line or another in it.
I am happy to say that I am a happy joyful person today, but none the less I still am proud of this poem. So here it is.
The monster within me,
transforms my outside into my insides,
The crippling sight of the horror I feel,
makes me feel hollow.
If only I wasn’t the only one to see it.
My black eyes fade over themselves,
the demon eating my soul is revealed,
I look into the mirror at myself as I scream,
but nobody hears.
I so badly want to yell out every feeling I have ever felt,
just so somebody can relate,
But no noise comes out.